EstivalEquinox

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x = Yes
/ = Sometimes/Maybe


1. Your profile

[ ] You've had some kind of "I hate people" | "I swear a lot get f***ing over it" stamp on your page
(Nope nope nope nope nope nope. Exact opposite of me.)

[ ] You've had a black & white gif on your page 

[] "name | pronouns | sexuality | taken <3" (or something similar) has been on your page at some point

[] Your page has been extremely short or just empty 

[ ] White, black or hipster background 

[] Your "best friends" has been in your custom box 

[ ] Being a beta-tester because the white circle around the star is edgier 

[ ] Your location has been Antarctica, Christmas Island or some other random place 0.000000000001% of the worlds population lives 

[x] Your tagline is a quote or an inside joke
(Usually)

[ ] Your "Real name" is something weird and/or random 

[ ] You don't have your age displayed 
(No, I don't mind displaying my age.) 

[ ] Your icon is a super expensive one that is really difficult to get 

[ ] Your icon is a drawing you made and isn't pixelart/animated

[ ] "Please reply to this comment if you want to talk to me!" 

[x] You've had a linked icon with someone 
(not on this account, but way back yeah.)

[ ] Your activity and statistics are disabled
(No, actually I get curious about other people's, so I'm sure they're curious about me. I have no problem with that.)



2. Your art

[] Black and white drawing

[x] Using song lyrics as titles
(Have I? *checks* Oh well, I guess so.)

[] Drawing blood and putting on "Mature Tag" 
Eh I don't think blood alone is worth a mature tag. Gore however is another matter. 

[x] You've drawn FNAF, Steven Universe, Over the Garden Wall and/or Mystery Skulls "Ghost" art
(one FNAF sketch. Just one.)

[ ] You've stored a lot of your old art
(I actually don't like it when people do that. I like seeing their old art and how they've improved. Same with me. I've only stored away my old version of my comic because I don't want to spoil things and there are changes I don't want confused with the new one.) 

[ ] Drawing crying animals 

[X] You draw animals or humans facing slightly to the side
(You mean three quarter view? Every so often of course. It's a good view.) 

[x] Your fursona is feline or canine
(I do have some cat characters so... but I don't really draw them much.) 

[x] You have at least one character that isn’t canine or feline
(80% of them.)

[ ] You use SAI 

[ ] You hate your art

[] You’ve made adopts


3. Your journals

[x] You've been doing memes like these and posting them

[ ] You've posted vague journals directed at one person, without tagging that person

[ ] "Join this raffle!" journal

[ ] Having a journal skin with your fursona next to the box


4. Your username

[ ] You've replaced a capital i with a lowercase L to make it look like an i

[x] Your username consist of two words put together

[x] Bonus point if those words are separated with a dash (-) 

[ ] Your username is a word in another language than english


5. Your behaviour

[] You have a secondary favourites folder where you favourite everything 

[] You have a "For me!!" favourites folder or something similar 

[] You comment with small letters like these or any other format than the default one

[] You write in all caps when something is funny to you

[] You write very "professionally" even though you're like 13-15
(21... so....)

[x] You’re set to《Invisible》and not《Online》



6. Other stuff

[ ] Your significant other is someone from another country/other side of the country that you've never met. And you met them on dA! 
(No, I met him in person near my college at an event, then discovered he lived on the other side of the state 20 minutes away from where I stay with my parents over winter break/ summer... so yeah. I hang out with him more when I'm at home.) 

[ ] You hate deviantART but lack the courage to leave it
(I actually like DA quite a bit.)

[X] You have a DS/3DS with Pokemon

[ ] You watch over 300+ people

[] You like Fall Out Boy, Panic! At The Disco, Imagine Dragons or My Chemical Romance 

[] You used dAhub at least once 

[x] You’ve moved accounts at least once
(Yeaaah I was considering it, but getting targeted by people after they were bullying a friend of mine and I stood up for them... well...yeah. I decided might as well.) 


12/49 or 24%

I guess sometimes you forget what kind of impact you can have on people here, even people you've never met, until you up and well... are gone for awhile. And the last major update I've left here was when I wasn't in a place where I was losing track of who I was and groundbreaking things were occurring. I got a note on here from someone who was really concerned about me so yeah. That kinda made me realize... I should probably let you guys know where I am at.

First off, I'm okay.

I did go through some major depression as I did lose track of who I was as a person. And of course, life doesn't refuse to slow down when that is happening. I got through the art block. I can draw again for fun. And slowly over the past few weeks I've started to try and patch together who I am and where I'm going, especially in light of summer coming.

I'm truly grateful that God has remained constant for me while everything else was changing. And truthfully some of the stuff that was happening were good changes, but still crazy changes. I guess that's to say, where am I going?

Well for the next two weeks I need to keep going on finals and review week. I suppose I can upload some digital artwork I've completed. One was school and the other was a personal piece that really helped me get back into digital work for the fun of creating artwork. I'll also work on replying to comments again. I have read every single one, but really haven't had the heart to say much.

Once summer hits, I'll probably still be slowly getting back into things. I have a few things I must take care of once school ends ASAP. But in that time I'll be working on the Bright and Brilliant again, as the urge to work on it has been slowly tugging me as art block has faded. And of course I'll want to play with random ideas for art pieces for the sake of creating art.
Also for those who love Undertale and Ed Edd n' Eddy... yeah there's some art there I wanna do too. I guess I just want to have fun.

I've learned a lot from these sad parts and have come out a bit stronger, I've also been learning some things about confidence too... I guess I'm to say, I'm not ready to be back on here as actively as I was in December, but I'm taking the steps.

Thanks for caring guys. I need to get back to work on finals.

Hi guys so....
Some things have been happening in my life. Crazy things. In terms of the core of my being, I'll be alright. That is not shaken... but so much more of me is. Like, like if a factory's power source is functioning, but all the machines have been shattered to scrap metal. The main thing works but everything else is... non-functional.
This is where I am at right now. Something happened. Something that isn't in itself bad at all, it's great really. But it's shaken my mind so heavily that I....I can't even draw for fun anymore. As a person I hardly know who I am anymore, and this lack of understanding, this lack of confidence, it's transferred over to who I am as an artist on a personal level. As far as school work goes, anything professionally that I 'must' do, that I 'know' why I must do it. Therefore that area of my art, animation, schoolwork... all of that is still fine and focused. And maybe with finals month starting in a few weeks, maybe I should focus there.

Basically what I am saying is personal work wise, I won't be able to do much here until I get my confidence back up. Until I find my place more. And that weird thing that happened to me, well I can't do much about it. I have to be patient. I'm not sure how long this will be. So yeah. Until then...

Well, I'll be checking messages. So if you wanna talk to me that's fine. But... I don't really think I'll be creating anything that isn't school related for awhile. My motivation, my reason for making art, I haven't lost that reason in so many years since coming to an art college. This is... a very strange feeling.